Numb v. Pain

I'm having trouble lately. The pain is back. Now that I have escaped the numbness, here is the pain. I'm doubting myself, I'm doubting everything. I haven't hurt myself in a while and now the thought of it tastes sweet. Why must I always choose between numbness and pain? Why is it the pleasure lies only in pain and the numbness the antihero of the two? I hate that I hurt. I hate more that I love to hurt. Pain drives me, pushes me. Makes me bleed (If not literally). So which is worse, the numbness of the pain? To be devoid of pain and feel nothing or to be in pain and feel everything? Where is the happy medium. Where is the pleasure in everything and nothing? Which will make you bleed faster?

Places To Go, Things to See

San Francisco Botanical Garden
Free

San Francisco's unique botanical garden inspires visitors with the extraordinary diversity of rare and unusual plants that can be grown in coastal California. Through its programs and displays, the Garden celebrates the bond between people and plants, and instills a deeper understanding of the necessity to conserve Earth's biological diversity. The library is open Monday-Sunday 10:00am-4:00pm but closed on major holidays. The bookstore is open Monday-Friday 10:00am-4:00pm. Time: Monday-Friday 8:00am-4:30pm, Saturday-Sunday and Holidays 10:00am-5:00pm

CCA Wattis Institute for Contemporary Arts
Museum

Established in 1998 at California College of the Arts, the Wattis Institute serves as a forum for the presentation and discussion of leading-edge local, national, and international contemporary culture. Time: Tuesday 11:00am-7:00pm, Wednesday 11:00am-6:00pm, Thursday 11:00am-7:00pm, Friday and Saturday 11:00am-6:00pm

The Exploratorium
Museum

The Exploratorium is an experimental, hands-on museum designed to spark curiosity - regardless of your age or your familiarity with science. With hundreds of exhibits to touch, look through, pick up, and tinker with, let curiosity be your compass to endless discoveries! The Exploratorium is located in the Palace of Fine Arts, near the Golden Gate Bridge. Exhibits cover a range of subject areas, including human perception (such as vision, hearing, learning, and cognition), the life sciences, and physical phenomena (such as light, motion, electricity, waves and resonance, and weather). A wide variety of public programs, artists-in-residence projects, and demonstrations accompany all exhibit collections. Admission Notes: Museum admission is free the first Wednesday of every month. Time: Tuesday-Sunday 10:00am-5:00pm, Closed Monday

The Cannery
Special Events & Festivals

The Cannery at Del Monte Square is one of San Francisco's most treasured places. Located at the foot of Columbus Street overlooking San Francisco Bay, and originally built in 1907, The Cannery was once the largest peach cannery in the world. Today, The Cannery at Del Monte Square is a vibrant waterfront marketplace featuring one-of-a-kind shops and restaurants, offices, live entertainment, and a world-class jazz club. The brick warehouse was converted into three levels of winding walkways, balconies and bridges surrounding an inviting courtyard with 130-year-old olive trees and several outdoor cafes. The Cannery's European charm, unique shops and restaurants, and award-winning architecture make it one of the finest shopping and dining experiences in the world. Time: Monday-Saturday 10:00am, Sunday 11:00am

Monterey Bay Aquarium
Museum

At the Monterey Bay Aquarium you can explore award-winning exhibits, participate in fun activities for all ages and learn more about life in the oceans. Discover why the Monterey Bay Aquarium is recognized as the nation's finest aquarium and number three top-rated family attraction in the United States. Located on Monterey's historic Cannery Row, right on the edge of beautiful Monterey Bay and just minutes from Carmel and Pebble Beach. With each visit, you'll find something new, and your visit supports the Aquarium's efforts to inspire conservation of the oceans. Ongoing Exhibits: "Wild About Otters" "Mission to the Deep" "Giant Octopus" "Sandy Shores" "Outer Bay" "Rocky Shores" "Life on the Bay" "Sea Otters" "Kelp Forest" "Monterey Bay Habitats" "Splash Zone" Hours Notes: From May 28-September 5 and Holidays, the Aquarium opens at 9:30am. The Aquarium is open every day except December 25. Time: Sunday-Saturday 10:00am-6:00pm

...more to come...

Sonoma Air

I wish everyday was a warm Sonoma spring day. That I may sit atop a tattered couch on a balcony overlooking the earth. I feel more at home by my lonesome taking in the tranquility in a second of a day. Time moves so much slower when you are moving backwards. I'm not regressing, just becoming more primal in my needs. Waste not, want not; and all I want it to spend an hour of my day in the sun. Distance means nothing to me. Time is nothing.

All life is broken down into blades of grass. So small am I to a predecessor of chartreuse beginnings. I suppose I find trees my greatest safety for they are my mother and my father. Trees are the parents to my parents and their parents still. So small am I compared to the trees. So safe.